monologe

So they want me to say whats on my mind. Well its hard to pick but then again it isnt. There are plenty things on my mind. One of them is how I am not being commented on any of my posts and that the confidence I have had this whole time is for nothing. But then again, my writing is for those who wish to read it. I understand how unpleasant it is to read something you really don't want to read. As for fame and lots of comments on my writing, PSHT who needs fame? I sure don't, in fact I could settle with a beautiful loving partner in a kind warm home in the woods with my many dogs and extravagant waterfalls of magic. But then again, I know I can do so much more. The fact that other people don't care what I write doest bother me and is DEFINITELY not going to stop me from going towards my dreams. I am also thinking I don't like the song that is playing. This one is somewhat better. I am also thinking of someone. I am always thinking of someone. Weather it is an extreme love from long ago that forever rests within my heart, or weather its the new one trying to spark through my naive heart. There is always someone in my head, in my heart. Its annoying, but at the same time so incredible. I love, love! I do. Its incredible how music can influence ones thoughts. Like when you listen to a song from a certain time period. Its like you feel what you were feeling then. Songs always make me melt and they make me so quite, too quite. I miss... *sigh*. I am a growing person, nothing can stop me. I have gone through so much, I am not about to stop now just because of some stupid comments. Oh no, I am worth MUCH more than that. As for love confusion and conflict, they are things we all encounter. I wouldn't want them any other way, except without conflic =). Life is hard, its harsh and whenever it seems you are settling for a perfect life, your world ABRUPTLY turns and makes you confused again. They don't want to see me rest, but I am fine with that as long as I am going in the right direction.

A doubting fire

Its been about two days now. San Diego is literally burning up. Its the talk of the town now, all over the news, people talk about it all over the streets. Its as if the world were about to end. Its affecting all of us, not just in a useless irritating way because I swear these dry lips are going to murder me. It makes students scream in joy because school wont be in session. I believe thats kind a pro and very exciting indeed for a student and maybe even teachers. But the thing is that many people are being affected. Houses burn down, mothers worry and fathers too. It seems that its like a flu, it flys through all of us eventually and makes us sneeze with worry or anticipation. The people who are there, in the fire feeling that heat that makes you feel hopeless, please know that you are not alone. Look at the fire fighters, they are risking their lives to help us. Theres people all over the county and even outside of it donating helpful items. The thing is that regardless of our races and differences unintentionally in the end we help eachother because we are all part of the same unit. When you look at those burning trees and homes, when you hear the howl of the fire and find yourself in an empty street that seems like the world will end, know its not. Trust me, people care and if you look for it you will find help.

Why things are different across the border

It varies around what border you are talking about. It could be the the border of the United States and Canada, or the one of Mexico and the US. In this case its Mexico and the US.
I am going to speak of one particular place, Tijuana Baja California. It is exactly outside of San Diego County. Tijuana now a days is at a critical point. All city's are but this one, I can say this because I have been there and witnessed the things that go on. Though Mexico is a beautiful country with all kinds of extravagance and incredible traits, it is not a world power. Usually the strong countries of the world have great control over injustice. Though corruption is always the filth inside dirty power, I can always seem to find a fair justice system in the US. In Mexico and ESPECIALLY in Tijuana finding justice is not an easy task. Because of this, criminals go round corrupting the richness of this extravagant country. These things are so sad. If you are someone that cares about the people you might have probably expirienced the rage when you hear about these horrendous acts.
It seems that now you cant find a single place without a hell burning fearsomely under. There is corruption here and there but one thing that I can say is not different across the borders of Mexico and the US, there is always someone there at least one person who will help you. If you lose hope you lose sight of that person, its just a matter of catching up and not falling into the lagoon of hate the corrupt government or people have created.

First Blog!

Yay! This is my first ever blog on an official blog site. Its pretty exciting since I know I will be writing tons on here because it is part of school and all. The coolest thing though is that we get to express ourselves while working with school stuff. Of course it wont always be school stuff but its still really cool that most of it is.
I really dont know what to write about except an introduction. Now I am going to go on and on about many things which might stray the point that I claimed would be delivered but to me, thats the beauty of it. I mean life and all, you expect to get this outcome and these events but once your there SO much more happens. I am telling you, almost 100% of the time you wind up in a place you would have never thought youd be in. It kind of sucks because it creates this subconscious that always tells you "What you think you are is false" or "Where you think your going is not where your going". Psht! Talk about dictatorship.
Never the less, a very wise women always tells me and my classmates "You have to make the best of what you have" so I guess I will conclude with this piece of advice. When you wind up in a place that you would have never expected to be, make the best of what you have but NEVER forget who you are.